Depresssed LDS pt.1

So still not my perky self . I have so much stuff weighing me down that I decided to break it up into several post.

This post is about being a single mom.

Back in July last year my husband walked out on me while I was 5 months pregnant, and our sone who was almost a year old. It didn't phase me at first, but when I gave birth to our second child I started to feel the pain. Recently my kids have been running me ragged with teething, gasiness, and other love baby stuff.

I will be the first to admit that I need to improve on things, but I will also be the first to say that this should not be just a one person job. I would love to just to walk out on responsibilities go out and party like the boys' dad did, but I love my boys and I know they need me.

Well that's all for now

Lds rants about how stupid people are around her

Lets face it we can all have stupid days, we also all have stupid people in our lives, but I never realized how idiotic people can get. My example I am going to talk about are people thinking I killed myself.

Let's start off by saying thank you to everyone who was involved .

Okay for the past few days I was super depressed cause of all the stuff I have going on in my life. Well today was a bit of a better day, but I was still kinda out of it. Well my kids were both taking a nap so I thought I would join them. While sleeping I guess the phone must of rang and I didn't hear it. Well finally I wake up to another phone call...it was my sister-in-law asking me if I was okay. Kinda confused about what was going on I told her I was fine. After hanging up with her on the house phone my cell starts to ring...it was my mother-in-law. She was asking if everything was alright because she knew I was depressed and she freaked out when I didn't answer the phone. I half want to say i was fine for the moment but as soon as I loss more blood not sure how fine I would be, but not wanting her to have a heart attack I told her that I was sleeping cause that what I do when I'm depressed. I love the woman to death, but does she really think I would off myself for a little stress. Hell I'm lazy. Do you know how much work I would have to do to find a nice spot to where they could find me, but still be out of site of the neighbors. Plus I'm such a failure a things that I would mess it up. So not only would my like suck but I would be piss that I couldn't kill myself the right way. So after we determine that I am okay she proceeds to lecture me about how I need to go out and make friends...um okay already knew that...she then goes into a dialogue about how I can't let life bring me down. Not wanting to remind her that I was still truckin' along, and that she was the one who assumed I had offed myself , I said I'd try. So I hung up the phone was about to go back to sleep when I hear a knock on the door, I open the door to find a pale faced visiting teacher(its an lds thing). Before she could open her mouth I told her I was fine, no I didn't hurt myself, no I wasn't planning on hurting myself, but if I get one more person who gets in the way of my nap I'll become homicidal.

Again I want to thank everyone involved, I appreciate the fact that you all care. I also want you to know that I may love you I still think you're all idiots. I've always told you if I kill myself you all are coming with, I prefer to do things in groups.

Well to anyone else that read this please leave a comment.

I'm a Jack lds wtf?

So for my first official blog I decided to write about what I find funny about my religion.
First off let me start by saying I love all my LDS kind and this is not meant to insult anyone.

What I find funny about the LDS way is that we are told that we should stay away from certain things like violent movies, anything R rated is out,songs that don't invoke the spirit of god, alcohol, and drugs. We are told that these are not mandatory to follow, and in the end it is our choice...this is FALSE.

While I understand the drugs and alcohol thing, I do not understand the whole music thing. I will be the first to tell you even though I am LDS I listen to Manson, Slipknot, Korn, Cradle of Filth, and many other bands. I agree that kids should maybe hit about 16-17 before listening to some bands, but I am an adult I know that the church is true, that jesus died for our sins, I also know that just cause the lyrics say something doesn't mean I have to believe in it.Another thing I don't get is why LDS adults need to be leery of R rated movies. Oh I am a strong believer that kids should wait to watch those movies until they can understand what it is they are watching. Hell I had to. Anyways the point is unless you have a weak testimony I don't see the harm in a little rated R movie now and then, as long as it is tasteful. Perfect example, my mother-in-law is a die hard LDS we were standing in line to see 'Precious' well when we got to the ticket counter we saw it was rated R she refused to see based on that. I had to see it by myself. I understand the rating for it, but it was so tasteful plus when you base a movie on a true story you can't cut out what a person went through just to get an acceptable rating.

Now I know that at least one LDS has probably stumbled on this blog and is thinking I have fallen from the church or I have a weak testimony, but the truth is I don't. This brings me to the second part of my rant how most(note I say most not all) of you not only judge me but others with the same view. We are know as jack LDS(people who are LDS but don't follow the churches guidelines). While the stuff stated above are just guidelines many die hard LDS take it too heart and constantly judges other members of the church for not following them. See the thing is God sent us to this plane to grow, but how can we grow if we are constantly being judge by other members in our ward.

Well it is getting late, and I'm pretty sure I've gotten out all that needs to be said. So please leave comments. If you are LDS or jack LDS please leave a comment I will love to get your opinion on this. Last but not least if you have nothing to comment then leave some ideas on what you would like me to talk about . Peace out.